Happy I have the day off.
Sometimes I wish this could be different. To just go back and find the right niche for me. I wish I would have made many people feel better than what they felt and may just maybe I be doing good all by myself. So now I sit back and think was this how I was suppose to end up was there something I should have done to have what I need and want right now. I can’t understand what is going on but I can say that I wish it could be different, better so much better. I have so many desires but so little leads to get where I need to be. Sometimes I think I’m going psycho because I want something that seems like its not going to happen for me.
All you want is some love and affection, how do you express when there is no one there to listen. You search and search you seen keep hitting dead walls. You look ahead and see some potential. You have hope that this could be it so you put your all in it. Your motto is all or nothing. You constantly put 200% in and don’t even know how much your getting in return.
You look to the hills from which cometh your help but still you feel there is no answer. You pray love knocks, but no one is at the for but the mail. You make yourself feel a little better by shopping and pampering yourself. Yet this temporary gratification doesn’t suffice.
As I sit waiting by the phone. Every second the anticipation increases. A minute turns into an hour, an hour into a day, and a day into a week. One should realize that after that week, you’d think to move on. Once again you excuse the pain and continue to wait.
At the end of the day….keep it moving.
Many may think that love may never come. Although this may seem true, God is still all you need. Its time to be humble about certain situations. I found that someone from my past re-entered back in my life. Even though it may not be permanent…I’m still greatful for the time I spent with that person. Cherish each day for what its worth. Be optimistic!
Well I just caught up on Basketball Wives Season 4 (BBW4). I love this season because many of the ladies on the show have grown tremendously. Yes, many of the relationship have been shattered beyond repair. Let me tell you the God I serve has been the provider, friend, mother, father really absolutely everything one needs. In Job 16:20 says, “My friend scorn me: but mine eyes poureth tears out unto God.”
I’ll be honest I haven’t blogged in months and I think this blog would be a great start to getting back in the habit. BBW4 can be viewed in a negative light but many people can use these lessons as a learning experience in their everyday lives.
Jen and Ev: Both women are career motivated and have been that way since season one. Jen and Ev were friends for fourteen years but everything has to come to the end. The fact is that they grown out of each other. People have to realize that they don’t walk in the shoes of Ev nor do they walk in the shoes of Jen. For people to comment and say what they would do is quiet ridiculous. How can you base a foundation of a relationship and the premise of it, when you only see what is broadcast on tv? Who know what God has in store for these two talented women.
Keyshia and Kenya: I can’t really see if there was a genuine relationship between them at all. I can say that their attitudes have changed since the beginning of the series. Keyshia has had her share of confrontations and people please let her be. She doesn’t like confrontation and she feels comfortable venting to certain people. I am not condoning to talk about people behind their back but she’ll have to find a way to handle conflict with Kenya and the ladies differently. Kenya, I wish I could say this to your face. I guess tumbler is just another avenue. I’ll tell you what you fail to realize that since you have been hanging with Jen tough you have changed as a person. You mentioned you were crazy does that include changing you identity. I find that you don’t know who you truly are. I honestly think you really need to seek God’s face and let him lead and guide you. You are talented and pretty but sometimes people need help from others.
Tami: I think your honesty is fabulous. I also think that you have grown not only since the beginning of the season but also since you been on the show. Your once short fuse has been getting longer. If no one else has said it Tami, I am proud of you and your progress. I think throughout this season you have been trying to help everyone with their anger, I applaud you for that. Keep up the good work.
Royce: I wish you the best in your relationship and I hope you continue to repair your relationship with your father. Keep your friends close, but keep your enemies closer.
Shaunie: I know how much you love these ladies and you want the best for them. You had a good run with BBW Series and it has been very successful for the 4 seasons on air. I would love to see you produce another show or a talk show. You have been a fabulous mother, friend, provider and career woman. It’s awesome that you have a bond with your Shepard. You have represented the black community in a positive light. Thank you for that.
These are just my thoughts, I feel that the show had a tremendous cast that had us laughing, crying, screaming and pulled out emotions we didn’t think we had.
If you haven’t caught up on the show, please visit vh1.com.